Tag: grief
-
Hate
Have you ever felt such hatred for someone? I’m not a perfect person, and I’m much too familiar with this feeling. Every time I have to drive almost an hour for my doctor’s appointment. Every time I have to pay for my medications. Every time anxiety hits me out of nowhere. Every time I have…
Written by
·
-
Growing Pain
Growing up, ada sorang lady in my life ni yang selalu sangat cakap I bukan waris just because I’m a daughter instead of a son. It started lepas we all pindah Penang, when I was around 9 or 10. Before that, we lived in Tanjung Karang dekat family belah my mom, and I memang manja…
Written by
·
-
I Wasn’t Allowed to Cry
I wasn’t allowed to cry. When I first saw my mom — Lifeless, lying in the emergency room — I cried softly and whispered, “Liya tak sempat jumpa mak.” But he said I shouldn’t cry. I couldn’t cry. If I did, it meant I was against God’s will. If I did, it meant I didn’t…
Written by
·
-
I Wasn’t Allowed to Cry
I wasn’t allowed to cry. When I first saw my mom — Lifeless, lying in the emergency room — I cried softly and whispered, “Liya tak sempat jumpa mak.” But he said I shouldn’t cry. I couldn’t cry. If I did, it meant I was against God’s will. If I did, it meant I didn’t…
Written by
·
-
The Silence of Loss
It was around 9:15 that night, or maybe it was 10:15. It happened three years ago, on September 1, 2021. A memory I wish I could forget, but how could I? It’s like my mind separates from my body, and I’m watching myself go through the motions without really feeling connected. I’m aware of everything…
Written by
·
Aliyawanders 